happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, I don't want no candles, I don't want no cake, I don't need no ice cream, I don't need no party, I don't need no spankin', I don't need any phone calls, I don't need anything because I've got everything I've ever wanted plus more, I need more time to get around to all my toys, its taken me over 3 years to play with them all at once, I'm still not completely there yet, but I am miles and miles closer than I was. I'm at a peculiar crossroad in my path, one road leads right here where I'm at, but there is another road that leads away from here, and it has a lot of potential because there are PEOPLE out there..
 an endless supply...

they can yell stuff at me I wanna hear... even if I can't quite make out what they're saying, since I will be LOUDER THAN LOUD the whole time, as long as they aren't making pissed off faces when they're yelling at me, its probably a good thing... here's the crux of the matter... I want to record EVERY TIME I play, even if I throw it away, I want that choice, and I want it ALL the time.. I can't get the same stimulation playing here in my studio... I play differently in front of people... its that rock and roll egomaniac thing that makes it a LOT fun... when I go out and set up a keyboard situation, I'm not there to merely look cool, be seen by all the hip people, and pick up a few coins... if that was my motivation it wouldn't be worth the effort and the expense...

to me its like an American soldier suddenly finding himself in Iraq, he's not there as a tourist on vacation, seeing the sights and having a little fun and relaxation... if I set up all these keyboatds, I definitely want to shoot as many people in the head as I can, I'm not there to kiss the world's ass, yes, I'm seeking all the approval I can get, most of all I'm focused on MY approval, and if I can go into places I've never been before and unleash a large wave-icle of what I'm doing in this room, then I know FOR SURE I would at least make my money back on whatever it would cost, and has cost...

its not that much money compared to ANY business you might pick out at random, I'm sure a professional lawn mowing service, or those guys who sell rugs from Mexico on the side of the road have more money tied up in their businesses than I have in this silly little noize studio. The thing is, this lil' operation has the potential to go really FAR, really CHEAP, like 10 years ago when I said the word "Psychotron" into my microphone and it eventually ended up in Japan, it was the only word of English left in the product, by the way, my boss at the time was none other than

Bob Cox
the notorious
LIAR,
THIEF,
and
CHICKENSHIT
MURDERER

 I was specifically unstructed not to put audio samples in the the theme music, he didn't want to pay for it, but I put them in there anyway, but never got paid. That's alright with me, it would have been way too musically annoying to leave it out, Cox was too stupid to see why it was essential. Later on, when they sold it to a Japanese company, Cox came to me and asked if I had some audio of the music I wrote, that same audio I was told NOT to make, but I made it anyway because it sounded great, it had over a dozen different samples in it, taken from voices in the product and set in a swirling rhythmic pattern with the theme music I wrote, kind of a cheesy low-rent spy movie imitation with that annoying hip hop style of samples jamming along....